Tired of keeping myself busy.. Tired of talking to friends…. watching movies one after another… watching t.v series… listening to music cds over and over… tired of going out all the time… hanging around… and I just can’t be still either… Exhausted from hearing that it's all going to be ok... and this weather is like a storm on top of another... I can’t tell myself anything anymore.. I’ve had it.. I’m too tired.. too drained out.. I’m tired of repeating the fact that non of this is worth it at all... I can’t do this anymore.. I just.... sigh. But - in a strange and weird way, it does help to hear some friends reveal things to me.. about him... giving me reasons for which I should be hating him... coz in that time, it twists my mind... and gets me thinking otherwise.... I know this isn't right.. but that effort twists my mind that my emotions calm for a few moments... If only erase and rewind was possible… If only....